Inadequate God

It is perhaps a question of my expectation, but God, I find your response so woefully inadequate.  You may do well at sustaining the universe but in my life your presence and influence, at least on major issues, have been hard to find.  I notice I say you are because I wish you were, lest I be alone, but I am unable to see or feel indication of you and when I have asked I have heard only silence.