In the middle of life so many things seem so important, and probably they are -- at least some of them. There is as well a clutter of things to be done, careers to be established or changed, schools coming to an end. There is family and their care. So many needs, so little time. But the ends of life -- its beginning and end -- are less cluttered, more free. They are times of less care, fewer demands shouting all at once.
At the beginning there is a freedom in reliance on the adults in one's life and a wonder that makes each day so new, unhampered by the sameness and care waiting down the road. And at the end, while less dramatic, there is also a serenity as we let go, sometimes reluctantly, of what life has been and move within, to greater depths for the lessening of life's breadth. It is a contemplative time, a time to move out of your body and into your heart.
My father was a writer. He wrote all of his life, inflicting upon many of us his novels, plays, articles, essays, and self-help books. Some were marvelous; some merely well-intentioned. But of all the things he wrote, his journal is his legacy: by turns wise and bewildering, it neared 1,100 type-written pages when he died in 2010. Although perused many times, this is the first time it will be read - cover to cover, page after page.
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