There was a child today on the playground, intent upon playing and being involved in what the game should have been. But every so often his friend would grab him and want to wrestle, as though wrestling were a parallel game, something one did as an interlude -- a way to pretend (but not really make believe) there was a contest or challenge as important as that game where they mostly laughed and where the rules had prevailed.
It was disconcerting to the boy and he seemed not to know how he ought to respond. Fighting, even if couched as a game, seemed foreign to him. Watching, I sometimes wished he would pick up his friend and hurl him the length of the playground. I was also glad it was not in his heart to fight, and in those moments I hoped that fighting would never become a choice he would make. It can be hard, I thought, to have his sensitivity, especially in those moments when others might rather be more primitive, but it is in that sensitivity that the world will find its future if it is planning to become more than a desert.
My father was a writer. He wrote all of his life, inflicting upon many of us his novels, plays, articles, essays, and self-help books. Some were marvelous; some merely well-intentioned. But of all the things he wrote, his journal is his legacy: by turns wise and bewildering, it neared 1,100 type-written pages when he died in 2010. Although perused many times, this is the first time it will be read - cover to cover, page after page.
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