Living and Dying

He speaks of hating life, saying it has long since stopped being a gift, if ever it had been; but in truth it is only his own life that has become so intolerable.  In the lives of others he finds great value, and of them he is more caring.  I have felt that way and know it is just beneath the surface so ready to come forward, but I do not experience it with this same despair.  While not pursuing death, he would welcome it as a gift -- the gift living was unable to be.